Saturday, May 31, 2008
So, where do we go now?
Why is music such a wonderful tool? I use it, everytime, to calm myself down when I'm in anger, when I'm sad, or so madly in love. Lyrics sure do play a part, don't they? Luckily I was fortunate enough to be trained in music.
Rock, pop, all music for all tastes. The song that struck a chord with my heartstrings in recent months was by Simple Plan titled "I Can Wait Forever". Maybe I just want to be able to sing that song to my beloved.
So GAUCHE.
You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So I try to find the words that I could say
I know distance doesn't matter
But you feel so far away
And I can't lie
But everytime I leave my heart turns grey
And I, I wanna come back home to see your face tonight...
Cause I just can't take it
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
I can wait, I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
I can wait, I can wait forever...
You look so beautiful today
It's like everytime I turn around I see your face
The thing I miss the most is waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes, man, I wish that I could stay
And I can't lie, but everytime I leave my heart turns grey
And I, I wanna come back home to see your face tonight...
Cause I just can't take it
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
I can wait, I can wait.. I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
I can wait, I can wait.. I can wait forever...
I know it feels like forever
I guess thats just a price I've gotta pay
But when I come back home to feel your touch makes it better
'Til that day there's nothing else I can do
And I just can take it
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
I can wait, I can wait.. I can wait forever
When you come my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
I can wait, I can wait.. I can wait forever...
I can wait forever I can wait forever
I can wait forever I can wait forever
I can wait forever...
MeOweD`
+ 7:25 PM
Friday, May 30, 2008
MINDEF PRIDE DAY
Went for a trip this morning to visit MINDEF PRIDE Day at Toa Payoh HDB Hub. Nothing that exciting really, only the usual high cost saving/avoidance projects done by MINDEF staff, most of which has nothing to do with me.
Highlight was simply the souvenirs I walked away with actually. Stikfas™, the name of the company that made all the Alpha Male figurines with the cute model rifles and rank stickers, were given out to participants in games. Pretty easy to get when the facilitators were there to give you hints. Kudos to them :) Lucky me also got another figurine which is an exclusive one, limited to 500 people who sms to 88.3 radio station. Apparently its worth $50, so maybe I can sell it for more than that in 5 years time?
Pretty much another ordinary day for me back in office, getting myself stressed up over small matters and mountains (out of a molehill maybe) of paperwork.
Secondary School Class outing's on 7 Jun 08. Nostalgic. Hopeful. Dread.
MeOweD`
+ 6:53 PM
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Tired Man, Angry Man, Thats me.
I should say being a clerk during NS teaches you many things. Administration, of course, is a vocational skill you will pick up along the way whether you like it or not. The other skills include treading lightly on toes of higher ups without them noticing, making yourself look busy while you're not, last but not least sucking up to your boss.
Inadvertently, or maybe subconsciously, I AM veering towards that last aspect while failing in the other two. Unlike many other peers in the army and air force, navy seems to be the pits of hell in terms of workloads. Maybe its a good thing, since time passes really quickly when you have lots of things to do. It bothers me, though, that work piles up so much that we hardly give much thought to what we are doing. We aren't paid to think, perhaps. What you pay S$440 a month for, what you will get. They're certainly getting their money's worth, since we're working our heads off and getting scraps as remuneration. That goes without mentioning the office polititcs that is flying so thick you can cut it with a knife. Yes, its that bad.
Of course, I am exaggerating the way things happen. But as anyone and everyone who asks, I tell: "We want a pay raise!"
LOL!
MeOweD`
+ 8:58 PM
Saturday, May 24, 2008
We love sports. And pieces of rocks in water.
Badminton was pretty fun. Only 2 hours straight of badminton's tiring... In the end I got rewarded with a sore arm and even more sore feet. I keep reminding to myself to get some exercise, but can never get the motivation required to go exercising alone. That means the only way I can get a workout is to go out with friends I guess. Jogging is a lonely sport, and when I really get down to do some jogging, I stop for at least a month after 1 session.
Pedra Branca's ours? I don't really care much about those petty blocks of rock. They are, after all, blocks of rock. Certainly, territorial waters are important... Give me a break... Worrying about it too much doesn't really make me a politician or a genius. Let the real professionals do the squabbling over the ROCK and let us observe with a pinch of salt. Unless we really go to war, I don't see the fuss. This thinking seems a bit childish, but why care too much? Lets face it. Its not like we commoners will make any difference anyway.
Enough on rocks and scissors and paper. The matter is laid to rest and we shall forget about it in less than a week. Bring about bigger issues like how we are going to cope with the price hikes and petrol prices. Rocks are secondary, the people are NOT!
MeOweD`
+ 7:41 PM
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Champions!
Sir Alex Ferguson deserves it, his deserves it. Winning the ECL again after 9 years is almost like a dream come true, again. Kudos to Scholes for providing the goods needed to justify SAF's sentimentality.
Exciting football, it is. Especially the penalties. Had my heart up my throat when CR missed his. Prayers were answered when Terry sent the ball to the skies after sending Edwin the wrong way (:
Never hurts to have a little luck, as they all say. Now United shall march on to GREATER heights!
GLORY GLORY, MAN UNITED!
MeOweD`
+ 8:00 PM
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Busybodies have names too.
Saw a couple of college-aged guys running around Yishun Bus Interchange. Apparently they were supposed to move people to the back of buses during peak periods, like how Japanese ushers squeeze people into trains. It smelled of "PROJECT" and I can't help but think back to the the Preliminary Idea phase of project work in JC, when I suggested the same thing to cure the peak period jam and got screwed mightily for being funny...
Pretty interesting to see people giving them wild eyed looks like they aren't supposed to squeeze themselves further in and give up their spots close to the door. Its human nature then? Or Singaporean nature? Heh... Ugly Singaporeans or not, at least there are people willing to change things, i guess. Hopefully people realise their own selfishness and we can all enjoy mornings and evenings without the anger coupled with missed buses and trains.
P.S. United is winning the Champions League tomorrow morning. I can smell it in the air!
MeOweD`
+ 7:00 PM
Monday, May 19, 2008
Calamities.
This age of uncertainty. Anything can happen anywhere to anyone.
First it was the Myanmar cyclone Nargis incident, and the the 7.8 Earthquake in Sichuan. I used to look at these disasters with nonchalance, with a "that has nothing to do with me" mindset. I suppose we all have this thinking at one point.
Watching the news on the earthquake on CCTV-4 however, felt like a hammer blow to the very core of my beliefs and character. One snippet mentioned that some trapped victims had to have their limbs amputated on the spot to be extracted from the debris, including both arms or both legs etc. These people are unrelated to me, but why do I feel such pain in my heart? Why do I start wondering what I would have felt if I was in their shoes?
On another news flash, a 12 year old girl who thought she had become an orphan reunited with her father through a telephone call. The relief she had on her face touched me even, watching on a TV across 4000Km of land and water. Even though she desperately wanted to see her father face to face, she kept enough of her wits to tell her father to help save more people who were trapped in debris.
Indeed, much credit must be given to the 14000 Men and Women from the People's Liberation Army and Public Security Force of China for working tirelessly day and night to search for survivors. Though by now fatalities amounted up to more than 30000, the search parties will continue searching as long as there is hope.
Putting aside differences in ideology, politics, and religion, we have seen Chinese people from all over the world unite in aiding in whatever way possible and to help the victims find peace among the chaos and death. Taiwanese citizens, despite the feuding between the island and mainland China, have mustered donations of up to NT200Million (S$10Million).
Ironic, isn't it, that its the tragedies of the world that unites people, but not the success stories and happiness. What we find in ourselves in tragedies is probably the things we want to present no matter when and what happens.
The televised news and newspaper articles affected me profoundly like never before. With a few more sleepless nights and wet-eyed moments, might I come to terms with what happened in Sichuan. We may be small things compared to the might of nature, but it is the will to live and the ability to grieve that make us human. Let us hope that never will we have to go through tragedies of this magnitude, or at least let us be prepared for that eventuality.
MeOweD`
+ 11:30 PM
REVIVAL!
Finally got around to revive my blog since it went dead EXACTLY 2 years ago. I suppose my thinking has changed since then, or maybe its just the world that has changed. In any case, my hopes and dreams are yet to be achieved. I shall continue on my road, where it leads me will yet to be known.
MeOweD`
+ 11:27 PM